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Sunday, August 28, 2022

Let's write a while

Let me say my hello to you my dear old friend! 

HELLO! (in the sweetest way possible)

I am so absolutely in awe and very ectstatic doing this again! 

And now friends, I write again. 

It has been a great while since I last laid my eyes on you.

A lot has happened. You will be thrilled with the number of adventures I had in the past couple of years!

I missed you my friend! I missed you terribly.

I didnt expected I'd stumble upon this page again. 

Indeed, things happen for they just need to. A rendering of an account is due upon me.

Let me recollect history.

And let all these forgotten recuerdo of the past be relived.

I may like some I may escape some, but let me not discount them all.

I know this has to happen. I am oblige to, and so let me open my heart, mind and soul out to you.

Let the sweet and bitter memories of the past come and linger once more. 

I hope I won't miss a thing, but perchance if I did, let me tell you in advance it is not my intention. Id like to tell it all.

 It must be have been timely. For sure. It always is.

So 2011 was a year I had a chance with love again, 2009 was the first. I met him and he met me, in the most common place where lovers meet, the workplace. When I begin my journey to adulthood, I prayed I would meet the most wonderful beautiful human in the world, in all forms and in all aspects, I was quite surprised he didnt, when our eyes met, I knew he was the very meaning of ordinary. But do not be misled, he is indeed beautiful, not just the most. At that time, his feelings were much more intense than mine, I couldnt fight for him. I couldnt give him a chance.  He was a gentleman to be sure, and most ladies I know would be thrilled to have a man like him. In my most immature way I turned him down and so I had his heart broken. I didnt know why but I broke mine also. I was sad that I made him sad. It was indeed a lonesome story.

2012 I must confess I did enjoyed dating during this time. I dated quite a handful of guys. There was R*, O*, J*, M*, E*, D*, P*, and perhaps 20 others I couldnt recall. Men of different genre, from a few years younger to triple my age. I had pleasure in knowing them, sharing thoughts, picking thoughts, events, ideas dreams anything under the sun. Most important of all I had pleasure flaunting my self, my unstructured thoughts, my high flying dreams, and my overly ambitious self with these prey. I loved being adored by them.

2013, a fellow mate in the same workplace, I didnt expect Id like him at all. I didnt imagined myself liking this guy at any point ever. Don't get me wrong he is absolutely stunning, a lot of girls drool over him, but I don't. I prefer men, who has finess in the way they move and the way they carry themselves. I like them dandy, neat and clean. Charming confident and not boisterous. He is the very opposite of it all. I dont like a chatterbox but he is. I dont like it rugged but he is. I didnt like it rowdy, rough, mean and noisy. I do not like it. And he is all that plus more. But why the heck did I ever liked him? I didnt how and why it started. The ins and the outs, but it did happen one fine day. Unfortunately. I found myself in a bizaare situation. Gazing and drooling over this odd noisy little thing. I was held captive by this unruly captain. I sure hope I can gallop away. But I cannot stop myself from falling. We had our time though, I got to know him better and let me tell you I come to just shrug off this part of him and enjoy that moment I had with him. We laughed at so many things, shared so many stories, about his life, mine, his family, his thoughts (i like picking on other people's thoughts and delighting them with mine), his legacies (i like showing off)  his dreams, my dreams, visions and so on, very neptunian. I know I would be one unforgettable girl for him. I made him so terribly in love. Albeit, he gave me different kinds of emotions all at once, I get to smile, laugh, angry, and confused. Yes I do like and I do hate him. I like that he is different and I also hate him for that. So once again, I let it go. I thought at that time, it was so fleeting, and it will never be more than what I imagine it is. I relished the time we spent together.

2014 I dated a few men at the start of the quarter. I was having a fun time. Little did I know that at the eve of my birthday my father will pass away. He was killed morbidly. We never knew who the murderers where. It was the saddest moment of my life. Of my family. Of our lives. I recall my sister calling me I need to go home and with not so many words I knew right away my father was gone, I was praying on my way home, for a miracle to happen, that this is all just a dream. I recall running from the office and crying all the way to our home. It was like a whirlwind. Then I knew how short and precious life could be. The first quarter didnt end happy. Days passed and we still cannot get over it. I cried all day every day. Every single day, on my way to work and on my way back home. Then I resigned from my job, and find myself struggling with this new workplace. I felt so out of place. So not in sync. And then I was terminated. I knew I don't belong. And then I was scammed on so many aspects I dare not give life to those stories once again. This year might be a horrible, miserable and dreadful year. This was so heartbreaking. When life rains on you it doesnt just rain, it pours and it pours so heavily my umbrella cannot withstand it. So it broke and I soaked.

2015 It is so true that there's a light at the end of the darkness. I can testify to it. With all the tears, throbbing pain and sorrows, miseries that I had with the previous year, I must say that this year saved me. I had a lot of revelations. I met Jesus and He changed my life forever. He gave me a fresh new start. A reason to live. A purpose. I felt like a phoenix, burning my old self, my old life and from the ashes and restoring my life anew. It was like seeing everything with a new set of eyes. My perspective has changed 360. I didnt knew it could happen. But I did. Glory be to Jesus for saving me, calling me his own. I started life again. 

2016 I saw this man, I didnt know who he was and what he do, it was instant. I fell magnetically in love with him. For no reason at all. I was in love again. Since I don't know him, he doesnt know me either, it was ironic to feel love for a stranger, I never knew him at all up until know. We never talked, ever. I only see him at church. I was perplexed to have this emotion linger cause I literally do not want it. Ironically it never left me, the more I researched about this lad, I knew the feelings should stop cause he way younger than I am 6 years his senior, he is not yet woking at that time, that reason alone should be enough for my thinking critical self to give up these feelings, to magically vanish but it didnt. I was literally on my knees praying that this emotion be vanished and casted out upon me for I do not want it. Eventually I found myself giving reasons to avoid him, I was successful at times and sometimes serendipity just happens. He seems to always linger somewhere when my mind tells me to avoid him. I dated not once during this time. At this time I had the desire to purchase a real property and so I did. I bough my very first land. 

2017 The miserable teeny boppy feelings for this young guy is still there, sure it did not left. It likes to stay, so I let it. But I wouldn't for the world do anything stupid. I just let it stay and I didnt mind it. Amidst all that, I was contemplating about my age and how time flows and where did it all go. I have never dated this year. Again.

2018 I have been very busy about my spiritual side all this while. I also focused on some further studies that I wasnt able to finish. I also had the desire out f nowhere to live on my own so I lived alone in a condo for half of the year. You should know how miserable I was, living alone. From 2015 to this year, my focus was always on the spiritual plane. Also, this man from 2016 just keeps passing and take note the feelings has not died but it is never strong. So again, I didnt had the chance to date.

2019 I was very enterprising. My e-commerce has thrived and I was ecstatic about it. Abundance has happened. So at the end of June I tendered my resignation to my latest job. And I was never employed since. It was also this year when I purchased a food franchise but to my dismay, I was never passionate about cooking. So it didnt thrived.

2020 I purchased my car and a new land for my car. I need a garage for it. So, purchase, I did. This year is when the pandemic over all the wold arrived. It brought fear to every breathing specie on earth. I think that was the pandemic, fear. Nothing more nothing less. I never saw that young lad from 2016 again. But sure I still miss him at times. I never had that teeny boppy feeling of having a crush again. the last time was 2016. Getting old is real.

2021 I longed to live in a condominium alone. Again. The pandemic might be the trigger. So in a condo I went. I lived there for more than a year. It was so spiritual and the most quiet and the most peaceful time. I really love my place. It was cozy, bright, beautiful and spaceous and quiet. It was perfect for me. I actually long to go back there again. I studied in DeLasalle CSB and started a new journey on something I love and I am still learning about it till now. I would never give up being master on it. So I will always thrive. I knew I am destined to be there.

2022 So we are now here at the present. Hello to you. The third quarter hasnt ended yet. I long to live in a condo again. I long to get my farm and get going with all my animal friends. I long to go on a Mediterranean Cruise, a European Cruise perhaps an  Antarctican Cruise is always welcome an  Alaskan Cruise for sure. Any cruise available, I would jump onto it anytime. I wouldnt mind if I fly on a drop of a hat on these destinations  Italy Germany Spain France, Andorra and Switzerland. Yes, these are few of the things I long to do. To get you hooked, I had been a certified Technical Analyst and I am top of the class. I also will be starting my second course on Real Estate Management this September. Goals.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

Daily Sweet Bible Thoughts

Praise ye the Lord!
Beloved, I present to you a gift of the Lord's sweet love.
To remind you each morning of His unfailing love.
The star of the morning wants you to keep your mornings close to Him.
These 30 and 3 days walk with Him, stay still with Him, savor every morning with the eternal peace of King JESUS.
Stay still with Him.
He knows your heart more than everyone else.
God bless you! Dearest Jesus loves you.

THIS IS A GREAT BOOK FOR 2 BUCKS ONLY. :)

Enjoy mornings now, grab a copy!

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

I love you DEAREST JESUS

I love you DEAREST JESUS! Thank you for loving and accepting me as I am. All my flaws, all my weaknesses, all my sins, all of my past, and all I am now, and all that I would be, YOU have embraced them all, without exception. What a perfect perfect Love you have! YOU are so amazing DEAREST JESUS! Words can never express how vast your GREATNESS is! YOU ARE THE KING OF KINGS THE LORD OF LORDS! How WONDERFUL YOU are O LORD!

I am nothing yet I am always in your mind, all the things I do, all the things I thought of, all the things I dreamed of, all the prayers I uttered, all those times I have sinned and hurt YOU. YOU have seen them all. There isnt anything that I can hide from you, as the psamilt David said, Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou artthere: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. (Psalms 139:7-8)

Oh DEAREST JESUS! Help me! Help me to be worthy, worthy of YOU!  My soul vexes much for the enormity of my sins, that I cannot even know how to bring glory to YOU. I wanted to bring YOU so much more than I have done now or before. More than the praises that my lips and my heart brings! More than the tears that runs dry from my eyes. More than the groaning of my spirit, more than anything that I can do. For there isnt anything enough that I can do enough to make me worthy of YOU, my SWEETEST DEAREST JESUS! It was YOUR MERCY and MERCY alone! Oh what a GREAT, PROFOUND LOVE is it! And my heart sores for I wanted to be if not worthy at least able to please YOU. Help me! Help me DEAREST JESUS! May the life I have be led by YOU alone! That this world lose its significance on me. Let all its shimmer fade, and may I keep my eyes on YOU. 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Alleluiah to the Lord!

Praise you Lord! Bless your name!

You bring me Lord, unexplainable Joy!!
Bless your name Oh my soul.

Only guarantee we have in this world, is the grace of God!

I am not immune oh Lord from the temptations around me oh Lord, but with You, I can battle  everything.

I have been hurt oh Lord as a child, and I continue to be hurt until now oh Lord. Oh Lord You alone are the Healer of all these wounds I carry. You alone oh Lord, are the miracle worker I can always depend upon. You alone loves me unconditionally!! without exception Lord, even when I cant even love myself.

I cannot sustain and go on with life feeling so helpless without You Lord Jesus Christ My God. My savior!

I know oh Lord that this world will continue to hurt my fragile emotions, so Lord I ask of you to rescue me from all this hurts. Let me wear your breastplate oh Lord. Let me not be ruled by this wavering emotions oh Lord, but let the Holy Spirit shield me with the TRUTH. The Truth that I have been forever saved by my Redeemer JESUS CHRIST and the enemy has no power over me.

Right now Lord, you know that I am facing a disturbance in my career. Please oh Lord, I know that these things are irrelevant in my life in general, for You alone are my provider. You alone are enough for me. You have said in the Scriptures, Don't worry Have faith in the Father, Have faith in me also. There are many rooms in my Father's house, I wouldn't tell you these if it were not so. I come to prepare a place for You, and I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.(John 14:1-3) I claim that oh Lord!

This world oh Lord is passing away. Let me bless and worship Your name forever!

Monday, September 29, 2014

Bible verses



Search me, God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 139:23-24

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

Thursday, May 1, 2014

On writing.

Writing has always been my refuge. This might ring true way back in my college and highschool days. When I always took the time and the effort to put into words whatever emotion I take. But now it seems, that passion has left me. I no longer feel the fire to write. Could it be that the passion has abandoned me? or is it the other way around? Could it have been possible that I have lost that love for writing that was once has fueled my soul? If it is, could I revive it?

I often think that I have this poetic soul in me. That little person which usually reveals itself during times of profound sadness, longing happiness, sorrow, nostalgia, indifference, grief, bliss, anxiety, love. That little person which I usually find endearing, and most comfortable with. Well, perhaps because its also I. That little person who knows exactly what to feel and what words to use to enliven the feeling and emotion of that sacred moment. That little person who knows how to weave the seeming intricacy of the words that would perfectly the capture the vividness of that single moment. Where is that little person? Where could I find that little person? Is she hiding somewhere far? Or is she lost forever? or perhaps it's me she's looking for? Perhaps she's just here hiding in me?

My Great God! Yahuwah!

I am loved by my God. Every day of my life. Every single day! I praise you O Lord, for You keep on enlightening me. Revealing to me the wisdom behind your works. Thank you Almighty God for bringing upon me courage and strength when I most needed it. Your divine presence just soothes my tired mind and body. You alone is enough for me. Why do I have to depend on myself, when it is You who created everything this world contains. Why do I have to worry about insignificant things, when you have promised to us that You shall give unto us everything that our hearts desire, we need just trust. Oh Lord I am really sorry for my forlorn self for always, when trials arise my trust falters and I begin to worry again. Forgive me my God for having such little faith. You are the Lord who created the earth, the sun, the sea, the sky. You know the vastness of the universe and even the number of my hair, how can I not marvel at your glory! Oh Lord. Fill me with your loving presence oh Lord. That I may boast always of your glory! The greatness of your glory goes beyond the fame of this world. You are Omnipotent, Omnipresent and Omniscient! I praise you oh Lord!

Friday, April 18, 2014

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Christ is coming

Angelica Zambrano 3rd Testimony of Heaven and Hell

This is the 3rd revelation of Heaven Angelica Zambrano 3rd experience of Heaven and Hell - - B
and Hell that the LORD 
gave to Angelica Zambrano. She was shown the beauty of Heaven and also many people who ended their lives in the everlasting torments of Hell because of various sins. She was given important warnings to the church and told of the low percentage of christians  that are ready for the LORD’S RETURN.
Evangelist Angelica Zambrano lives in Ecuador in South America. It was around 12.30am at night when her near death experience & revelation of heaven and hell began (see the full video at the end of this post for more info). The ministers and brethren were all in intercessory prayer during the experience. The first thing that occurred was that angels took her from her house to a heavenly viewpoint.
THE CONDITION OF THE CHURCH – FEW ARE READY
From a heavenly viewpoint an angel said “Look you are seeing the earth. Look at all the churches and congregations of the earth. This church has 20,000 members. There is another with 10,000 members. This other church has 1000 members.”  He continued to show me many congregations and then said “But there are very few people in these churches who are actually the true church.”
The angel said “I must tell you what the Father wants me to tell you”. The Archangel Michael was the one speaking to me. He said “Look at the earth. The churches are filled with sin, there is so much sin in these churches. Many of the people are spiritually dead”.
Through the angels the LORD showed me that 80% of the Evangelical Christian Church on earth will be Left Behind. They will be left behind because they are cold.  Because they dont seek God’s presence. Because of their sin. Because they are discouraged. Only 20% will be caught up (Raptured) to be with Jesus, this is only for true Christians. That is why His word says `Many are called, but few are chosen’ (Matt 22,14). We are all called but we not only must be called, we must be chosen.
Let me explain what takes place inside many of the churches. There is very much religiosity. There is no loyalty to the word of God. Inside church, brothers and sisters happily praise the Lord. They rejoice, they dance and they speak in tongues. But when they get home they are completely different. They act like the devil himself. This is what takes place. People go home and speak things that hurt God’s heart. At home they dont pray, read God’s word or seek His presence. God does not want any of us to be left behind. It hurts me that 80% of the Church congregants are not ready for the Lord’s return. Because few of the churches truly demonstrate the true love of Jesus.
There were angels all around, then Jesus spoke to me, while the angels remained silent. The LORD said “Daughter my heart breaks to see how many people are discouraged. To see how many people have backslid. Tell my people to return to the old paths, to the First Love”
Church, you must encourage the believers. Tell them to seek God, to reject hypocrisy. Listen to what the LORD told me. The LORD said “Do you know which commandment my church has forgotten? Some think its love. Some think its faith. The forgotten commandment within my church is Holiness. My Word say ‘Be holy, for I am holy.’” (1Pet1,16).  This is what the Lord says, we have to be holy inside and outside. We must have a pure heart, a clean heart that is filled with His presence. A heart filled with His love. A heart filled with God.
Rev 3, 15-16 “I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth. … 19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten. Therefore be zealous and repent.”  
THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN
Then an angel asked me “Are you ready? The LORD has sent us for this purpose” I answered “Yes, Im ready” as the Lord had taken away all my fear. This experience was different from the other two experiences. This time I did not travel to Heaven in the same manner as before. This time I instantly entered the Kingdom of Heaven. When I looked around I realised I was wearing a beautiful white dress. We began walking and the angels were just worshipping the LORD and said “Look around for we have many things to show you”. I began to see the same places I had seen in my first experience such as flowers and a beautiful garden.
Heaven
CHILDREN IN HEAVEN 
When we passed the garden we arrived in a place that was filled with children. These children were about 2-3 years old. They danced, played and sang. The angels said “Look, to such as these belongs the Kingdom of Heaven. Remember, only for those who open their hearts. Many of these children were killed. Many were aborted. Their mothers took their lives”. The children worshipped the Lord and played on what appeared to me to be a swing set. As I approached them they got very close to me. The Archangel Michael said to me “Today the Lord gives you a great love for children”. Previously I liked children but sometimes I hated their behaviour, crying, whining or talking too much. I just liked them to sit still. Michael said “God gives you a new love for children. When you return to earth, you will be like honey to them. They will look for you and you will be a blessing to them. Do you know why God places this love in your heart for children? God wants you to win their souls. There are many children in Hell. You must speak to their parents so they will know”.
Many children in this generation are rebellious. They do not obey their parents. Nowadays, children are being deceived by satan through the television. Most of the shows they watch do not edify in any way. Parents don’t realise it but there are many kids that watch pornographic videos. The cartoons that come through TV are not educational, they are evil. Children are influenced by these shows and they become rebellious. They continually disobey their parents. For these reasons children end up in Hell. (See Angelica’s 2nd Testimony for more info)
Eph 6, 1″Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2 “Honor your father and mother,”which is the first commandment with promise: 3 “that it may be well with you and you may live long on the earth.”
In Heaven, the children were praying, laughing and worshiping the LORD. I had great joy to see their happiness. When the angel told me that many of them had been aborted, it really hurt my heart. And you know what is sad? Many women have had abortions. Young and old, married and single. These women did not want their children. Sometimes the fathers would accompany them to the clinic. Those babies go to the presence of God. But the men and women of the earth become murderers. The word of God says that no murderer shall enter the kingdom of Heaven (Gal 5,19-21, Rev 21,8). If you have done this Repent today. If you do not repent and ask God for forgiveness this is what will take place on your day of judgment. Your children will come as a witness against you and say “You were my mother , you were my father, and you took my life”. They love you, they forgive you, but if you do not repent of that sin, you will go to Hell for eternity. Inside of the churches this sin has been committed.
ENTERING HELL
Next we headed to where Jesus was, I was so happy. When I approached the LORD He took me by the hand. When he touched my hand I felt as if I was a newborn baby being touched by a loving Father. As Jesus held my hand we began to descend towards a very dark place. I could see there were very large flames of fire. Jesus told me “We are going towards the heart of Hell”. “The heart of Hell? Hell has a heart ?” I asked. He replied“Yes my daughter, Hell has a heart, I will show you what is inside of it. There are many pastors, evangelists, prophets, and apostles in this place. These men once served me but now they are in this location”I began to cry and said “No more LORD, I don’t want to see this anymore”. I felt I had already seen enough. But we continued to along a path that was like a dark alley up to some bars that were like a gate. The gate opened and we entered.
Panoramic_View_of_Hell
THE PASTOR WHO SINNED
When we entered I heard the voice of a man crying out “Father Father, get me out of here. I can’t stand it any longer”. I asked the LORD “Who was that? He must have known you on earth because you said you would show me people who once served you. I don’t understand why he refers to you as `Father`, while he is in Hell?” The LORD said “He was a Pastor” The man stood there pretending to be holding a Bible. The man in Hell was preaching `Repent, repent brethren, church of Christ, you must repent’. I asked “Why is he preaching here LORD”. The LORD said “What people did on earth they continue to do in this place” (Gal6,7-8). I began to cry and asked “If he was a pastor why is he in this place?” Jesus said “Daughter, it is due to this”.
I was shown his life on earth as a screen appeared before me. “On earth he was a respecter of persons. He showed partiality to people of different classes in My holy place. Showing partiality is a sin. He preached many times from the pulpit showing partiality. Showing partiality towards people of wealth, towards people who were upper class. Those people had money, but they did not fear My word. He showed partiality to those people who did not have Godly fear in their hearts.” I cried and said “LORD I did not know showing partiality was a sin.” He said “Yes daughter, many people wanted to serve me and be a part of his church, but he didn’t allow them to participate. This Pastor never repented from showing partiality. Because of this sin, many people never came to me. This is why he is in this place. Even in Hell he preaches my word with partiality” (Gal 6,7-8).
In Hell, this man would approach souls and say “Take this, I share my Bible with you, preach”. He looked at Jesus and said “Father, I cant stand being here any longer. Take me out of this place. I don’t want to sin anymore. Give me another chance!” The LORD replied “There are no more opportunities for you. You are too late.” When the LORD said that, the pastor began cursing blasphemy. I said “LORD, I don’t want to see anymore, can we leave?”. He answered “No”. There are congregations everywhere that practice partiality. Although it seems insignificant, it is a great sin. The LORD told me to tell people “Don’t practice partiality, it is a sin”
James 2, 8 “If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you do well; 9 but if you show partiality, you commit sin, and are convicted by the law as transgressors. 10 For whoever shall keep the whole law, and yet stumble in one point,he is guilty of all.” (please read the whole of James chapter 2 which deals with the sin of partiality – showing bias or prejudice)  
THE BURDEN OF THE LORD 
In the experience I never saw the LORD’s face. I would always look at His garments or His hands, but I could never see His face. Every time I attempted to see His face I felt as if I would go blind. On many occasions I would see tears come down His garments. His sandals were gold. When tears would land on His sandals, crystals would form. Many times Jesus would begin to weep. He would say “Daughter, my heart is in pain”. His heart breaks when He sees us in sin. I say us, because I include myself. God doesn’t want us to sin. God desires to set us free from the bondage of sin. God wills for us to walk in the spirit and not fulfil the lusts of the flesh (Gal 5,16-18). He desires for us to do great things for His Kingdom.
WORLDLY MUSIC STYLES IN THE CHURCH
The LORD said “I will show you another sin that takes place on the alter of churches. It is regarding music.”  The Lord showed me people playing and listening to rock music, rap music and reggae music in the alter at churches. This displeases the LORD. The word of God says He wants us to worship Him in Spirit and Truth. He does not say He seeks for those who will rap for Him in spirit and in truth.
We moved to another location in Hell and I saw a young christian man who was singing christian rap or reggae style music. I asked the LORD ‘Why is he here? LORD I really want to know why is he here? Why is he singing?”. At this time I was remembering how many musicians are in Hell; Selena, Michael Jackson, and many other musicians are burning in Hell. I asked “LORD did he sing in the church?”. He replied “Yes daughter he sang at church”. The LORD did not say anything else after that statement.
I began speaking with this young man. He said “My name is Mark. I am in this place because I did not worship the LORD . I sang rap style music instead. I would sing these songs at church but I did not like to pray, I had no prayer life. I did not like to seek God’s presence. My purpose in singing these songs was to attract young people to church. I wanted gang members to come to church, I didn’t realise it is God who must draw them. It is He alone who deals with there hearts.”
I asked “How long have you been in this place? and is there any other reason you are here?”. He said “4 years. Yes I had a lot of pride, I am also here because of that. Here the demons torment me and continually laugh at me they say ‘Worldly music is an instrument that we use to bring young people to this place.‘ Mark was completely bound while he talked with me. His arms and body were tied up with snakes.
Hell
He would cry and ask me “Can you help me?”
I said “No Mark, I would if I could but I cannot”.
He replied “I know I will never get out of here. Look at me, I am in torment. When I died I fell into a tunnel. After I descended from the tunnel my body exploded as I landed in Hell. Worms came out of my body and I have remained in torment until now. I have become disfigured and the flames of Hell continue to burn me. I cant stand it anymore. The demons say this is my kingdom and that satan is my god”.
I said “I understand, but Mark on Earth you had a chance to repent.”
He cried and said “Tell the young people to worship Jesus. Tell the whole church to worship. God seeks true worshippers!” After Mark had spoken a flame came between us. He became engulfed by the flames as soon as I stepped away. While we had been speaking the flames had only risen to his waist, after his last statement his torment continued as before.
The LORD said “Daughter, many people think that with certain music and certain programs they are able to attract the world and reach the gang members and drug addicts. No! It is not men that bring conviction of sin, it is the Holy Spirit that deals with and convinces man of his sins. It is I who touches hearts. It is I who deals with the hearts of man, I alone am able to save. Men think they are the saviours.”
This is what the LORD told me. I cried. This was so difficult for me, it is still difficult. I think that if you are listening to this type of music you must STOP. This is between you and God though. As I fulfil God’s will in telling you, I am no longer responsible because I told you what God said. If you want to accept it, accept it. If you want to reject it, reject it, I fulfil my responsibility. This is something He required of me. If I don’t obey Him, Hell awaits (Ezekiel 3,16-21). I don’t want to go to that place & end up in torment, I have already visited there 3 times, its more real than life in Earth. As we left Mark’s cell he began to blaspheme. The LORD told me ‘When we leave this place tell My church to worship Me in Spirit and in Truth”. 
John 4, 23 “the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him. 24 God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.” (Also see Col 3,16-17, and Eph 5, 17-21) 
THE PASTORS WIFE 
As we moved on to a different location I saw a women in Hell. She was crying “I cant stand it anymore. I cant bear it anymore! Lord, help me”. This women served God for many years while she was on earth. After this life you do not get credit for how many years you knew the LORD (Ezekiel 18,21-32). We only inherit salvation by serving God with all our hearts and living lives in His will (Matt 7,21-23). This women knew God’s word. She has even preached God’s word, but she was in Hell for the sin of adultery (Admin Note: ‘Once Saved Always Saved’ is a false doctrine, a Christian can indeed be disqualified – Gal 5, 19-21, Eph 5, 3-5). This is what made this extremely sad and troubling for me. In Hell, she was being tormented by snakes in a similar manner to how prostitutes are tormented. She would tell the evil spirits “I am a pastors wife, don’t touch me. Don’t do this to me”. The demons tortured her anyway. The LORD had confirmed what she had told me regarding adultery. He said “She is here for committing fornication and adultery. On earth she had been a pastors wife who preached God’s word. She had children as well, but this did not keep her from infidelity to her husband”.
You know what? This sin takes place in many churches. Even many ministers of God’s word have committed this sin. This must stop. It has gone on for too long. Resist the devil and he will flee. Put your trust in Jesus. It was so difficult for me to see this. It is sad to know how often this takes place.
Gal 5, 19 “Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, 21 envy, murders, drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.”
THE YOUNG EVANGELIST IN FLAMES
Next I heard a young man yelling “Help me Lord, Help me” The young man who was yelling had been an evangelist on the earth. He committed fornication a multitude of times. The word of God warns “If they cant control themselves they should go ahead and marry. It is better to marry than to burn with lust” (1Cor7). It is better to marry and avoid sinning, for if you live in sin and die you will go to Hell. This man was a preacher of God’s word. This teaches us that we must pray without ceasing and ever vigilant of the traps of the enemy, who is seeking how he can attack the ministers of God’s word. There are millions are demons ready to tempt preachers. It is very important for the church to intercede for its pastors, local and around the world. They need protection from continual attack. As I walked away flames engulfed him in torture. My heart ached for that young man. I still feel for him. I share this with you so you realise we must obey God’s word
1John2,3 “Now by this we know that we know Him, if we keep His commandments. 4 He who says, “I know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. 5 But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him. ”
THE PASTOR BURNING IN TORMENT 
In the next place I saw a Pastor burning in torment. He was holding his hand in a manner in which he seemed to be drinking an alcoholic drink, he was acting drunk. I thought, a drunk pastor in Hell? He had been a hypocrite in church. He had pastored a large congregation with a multitude of members. He was also a liar and an adulterer. Next to the pastor was a demon that appeared to him like a women and he continued to be a drunk and an adulterer with the demon who tortured him. The man said “I was a pastor, I preached God’s word but I did not live God’s word. I would get drunk and also cheated on my wife. I never repented of my sinful ways.” This man knew that God’s word says that adulterers shall not inherit the kingdom of Heaven, neither shall drunkards (Gal 5,19-21 & Rev 21,8).
Many people on earth preach God’s word but continue to live in sin. People need to stop sinning and begin to seek God. This pastor told me “You must warn people not to come to this place. Please, you must warn the churches to escape the flames of hell”. The LORD then showed me a large screen that showed part of his life. On earth he would preach while his wife was with him supporting his ministry. He was wealthy and prosperous, but now in hell he no longer had opportunity for salvation. He no longer had the women he loved on earth. For all eternity all he has is Eternal Torment … Torment, Torment, Torment, this is all he has!! I was discouraged when I saw how a pastor can end in Hell and told the LORD I didnt want to see anymore or preach anymore. The LORD said to me “Daughter, you must fulfil my will. You must obey, I will show you why”.
A CALLING REJECTED, A DESTINY DIVERTED
As we continued on to the next cell there was a women and the LORD told me several things about her. She had been called into the ministry at age 15. At that time she told God “Im not ready for the ministry, I am too young. Allow me to finish school and graduate”. After that the LORD called her again. Then she said “I am married, I must focus on taking care of my children. Not now.” After the children were raised and began to have family of their own the women focused on raising her grandchildren. The LORD told me “I continued calling her throughout her entire life, but she disobeyed Me and rejected her calling.” The LORD asked me “Will you reject my calling?” I said “No LORD, I will not. But LORD this isn’t easy for me”. The LORD said “It is I who speaks through you. I Am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. I will help you and guide you.” I was crying and made a promise “Ok LORD, Whoever rises against me may rise. You promised me you would be with me so I will continue no matter what. I don’t want to end up here.” This is what I told my Pastor recently, I want to continue because I must fulfil God’s calling upon my life.
This same lady got old and passed away and went to Hell for disobedience. Over 5000 souls were lost because of her. The demons in Hell would tell her “Look around, many of these souls are here because of you”. She looked at the LORD and cried “LORD forgive me for disobeying my calling. Forgive me for not responding to you.” How many people on earth are in this situation? When the LORD calls you and chooses you, you must obey. The LORD called me when I was just 17 years old. I knew absolutely nothing about the Bible. Since then the Holy Spirit has been teaching me. In Hell, this women pleaded with the LORD for forgiveness for rejecting her calling. The LORD said “You have no more opportunities of forgiveness.” The LORD tearfully said to me “Do not refuse Me. I have called you and chosen you. You are to be My Watchman so that you may take My word to all nations.”
(Dear Reader) God chose for you to hear this message. Many will not hear it, but God chose for you to hear it. That lady in Hell told the LORD `Im too young, Im studying, Im busy, not yet`. Look what took place in her life. She has now repented but its too late. Now I ask you, what will you do? Will you obey what the LORD is calling you to do? You have been chosen by God to reach the lost. We must fulfil God’s will because He chose us to abide in His perfect will. If we do this we will be in His presence for all eternity. Don’t reject it any longer. Receive it. The Holy Spirit will guide you, not man. God himself will guide you. That lady was continually tormented by demons in Hell. They would tell her “God had spoken to you and called you. You disobeyed the LORD and now you’re here for eternity”.
Heaven and Hell
I cried as I left that women and asked the LORD to forgive me for not wanting to preach His word. You know why I wanted to stop preaching? Its because some people accuse me of being a false prophet. After I had this experience I don’t care about their accusations any longer. They can say whatever they want but I will keep on preaching His word. The LORD said “Do not fear men, fear Me. Don’t worry about their opinions, focus on mine.” So why should we worry about mans opinions. Men cannot grant eternal life, only Jesus can. Even if people continue to criticise you, don’t allow that to be a hinderance or make you quit. May their false accusations cause you to rise up stronger. God will use this to help you endure and press forward. The trials we face are difficult but Jesus is with us.
Luke 12, 4 “do not be afraid of those who kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do. 5 But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear Him who, after He has killed, has power to cast into hell; yes, I say to you, fear Him!” – Jesus
SELF MURDER
The LORD said “It hurts me that the love of many on earth is now growing cold. Many difficult tribulations are coming to the earth. I will show you someone else who once loved and served me.” As we approached another location a man yelled out “LORD my God I always loved you. I always wanted to do your will, but I was double-minded. I was inconsistent in my walk with you. When I preached your word you led me. At those times I was obedient to you. Eventually I would always leave you and return to my old ways. When I would come back to You , You would restore me. I just couldn’t stand my life. Thats why I committed suicide.”
That man in Hell is a murderer. Being a murderer is not only shooting somebody or having an abortion. Murder is also the taking of a persons own life. If you commit suicide you go to Hell. It is written: `no murderer shall inherit the Kingdom of Heaven’ (Gal 5,19-21, Rev 21,8). He is not in God’s presence because he committed suicide. You know what, if your one of those people that get tired of serving God, you can’t continue, you are discouraged, you’re tired of serving God, maybe its because the world is attractive to you. I tell you reject the desires of the flesh, Reject them!! Walk in the Holy Spirit. God will help you to abide in His will. This is not the pastors responsibility or anyone other than your own. You must reply on the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
Gal 5, 16-21 “Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 17 For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish.” 
THE DANGER OF FIGHTING, DIVISION & UNGODLY CONFLICTS
After we left that location I looked and saw something startling – two men fighting in Hell. A fist fight in Hell. This was my 3rd revelation of Hell and I had not seen this yet. There are many churches that are filled with hypocrites. Men who are nice in church but in actuality they fight over anything. They fight for money, they fight for church members, and they continually fight. Hypocrites! The souls belong to Christ. The money isn’t for men, its for working for the Kingdom of God. These two men fought angrily and more men came and joined in on the fighting. Demons continued to torture them while they fought. The flames burned them and they were in great torment, they yelled and screamed in agony.
I asked the LORD “Why are they fighting?” The LORD did not answer me. I turned to the men and said “Stop! Why are you fighting? You are in torment and you continue to fight. Tell me why are you here, I want to know.” A man looked at me and said “We fight because we cant escape this place. We are the same here as we were on earth. On earth we fought for profit, we fought to take church members to our own congregations, we fought to have more for ourselves. Now I have repented and I ask God for forgiveness. But I know God’s word though, and I know I can no longer be forgiven.” The men fought continually. The LORD told me “There are many people on earth who were once faithful servants, but now they are headed towards this place. Tell them not to come here.”
drinking_torment
This is my responsibility. I have been warning pastors as well. I have gone to places where the focus of the ministry has been to make a profit. There are pastors who fight for money and to take church members. This is the same reason those men were fighting in Hell. I have also been to places where pastors love God passionately with all their hearts. They would be willing to give their lives for the gospel and love to work for God’s Kingdom. But there are also pastors who are hypocrites, but all of them though. These are vain and so are some evangelists. It is terrible that some leaders fight to take church members to their own congregations. They want to fill their churches easily. The souls are not ours, they belong to Jesus Christ. There are souls in Hell for these reasons. There is no humility in causing rivalry.
God does not want us to be divided. He wants all of us to be united like we are today. Look at how many pastors are gathered here today, here is a pastor, and another pastor, and another. We are gathered in one accord. God wants us united. He wants us to help one another. It doesn’t matter where you are from. You could be from France or New York or Italy, it doesn’t matter. You still have the same Holy Spirit. God wants us to be one. We are one body and He is the Head.
We must be united in love for the work of God, and we must also love one another, unlike those men who ended up in Hell. Look how they ended up, fighting and speaking horrible things to each other. It made me feel bad. After this experience I cried very much. I cried because it hurts my heart to know how many men and women fight for material things. They don’t fight for whats really important, for the spiritual things. Don’t fight for material things, but fight the devil himself so that we don’t lose our blessings. God’s blessings are worth fighting for, but fighting and causing division in church is not of God.
It hurt me to see the eternal consequence of people who cause division. While I saw these men fight in Hell, one of the men said to me “When you return to earth tell people not to fight or cause division”. Maybe you are secretly fighting and causing division. Perhaps in public you argue with people. God isn’t trying to embarrass you, he is correcting you. He wants you to have a humble and contrite spirit. Repent and don’t repeat your offence. God desires for us to enter His presence, but we must walk in holiness. We must be holy because he is holy.
Heb 12, 14″Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord:15 looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled
THE CAPTIVES
There are so many different things that take place in Hell. I did not want to see anything else after seeing those men fighting. But before we left God showed me peoples spirits in Hell who are still alive on earth. These people are bound and appear to be in cells. This revelation God gave me is similar to what I heard another servant of God say in their testimony. In Hell I saw a young girl I know here on earth. I saw this young girl in one of those cells. I have not told her yet. The LORD let me know I shouldn’t tell her at this time because she wouldn’t receive it. I will wait on God’s timing to tell her. When the Lord tells me its time then I will go speak to her. She is my friend. I wouldn’t have know this about her without this revelation.
The LORD’s revelation to me was that she was in that cell because she was a slave to sin (Rom 6,16). I said “LORD I don’t understand. I see souls fall into tunnels and land inside of Hell but others simply remain in this place”. I would also see double minded Christians heading to this place. I looked around and saw many people bound by sin. The LORD told me “The girl you see is living in fornication. She also has resentment in her heart, not my peace. Go and speak to them”. The LORD said `them` because there was another girl there that I also know. Two girls were in that place of bondage. Those girls are bound by sin (John 8,31-36, Rom 6,15-21). The LORD said “Go and tell them that I want to set the captives free and liberate them. I want to liberate them from the prison they are in and do great things in their lives”. I replied “Yes LORD I will tell them”.
As we continued to walk I saw many souls in bondage. Unfortunately, they had all known God at one time. We walked up to another lady that I know, who was in the same situation as my friend. She said crying “LORD I can’t remain here any longer”. The LORD said“This is her conscience, she is living in disobedience, in sin.”. He revealed more things about that women and said “Go and tell these women what you have seen.”. I have already spoken to one but not yet the other (back at the time of sharing this testimony), it is not the right time. After I have spoken it becomes their responsibility to receive it or not. God wants to set the captives free and loose those who are bound. He wants to take you out of slavery and bondage and give you freedom. Resentment leads to bondage. Hatred, bitterness and these emotions all lead to that place. You must ask God to search your heart, what is in your heart? Acknowledge that there is sin and ask the LORD to break that yoke of bondage. God will break those chains and release you from that prison. When you acknowledge and repent the LORD will set you free, but first you must acknowledge sin and repent.
Rom 6, 15 “What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!16 Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?”
HELL & THE LAKE OF FIRE
Afterwards the LORD began taking me up and out of Hell. It was as if we were climbing a stairway through a dark tunnel. When we arrived at the top I looked down and saw Hell form a different viewpoint. Hell is an extremely large place. From my viewpoint I saw Hell in a central profound location and I also saw the Lake of fire They were separate. The Lake of Fire was underneath Hell. This is the way I would try to attempt to describe what I saw. I saw a large tub of fire and sulfur. Above this container I saw the shape of a doll, or a body. The tub is the Lake of Fire. After the LORD showed me the Lake of Fire we left.  Rev 20, 15 And anyone not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the lake of fire.
Hellfire
SEEK & SERVE THE LORD GOD
For those that are listening or reading this testimony let me say this to you. God gave you this message because He is real! We don’t serve a god of wood. We don’t serve a dead god.  We serve a living God. He said to me “I never change! I continue to be the same living God! I Am the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I Am the God of yesterday, today and forever. I have never changed and never will.” Don’t forget we serve a great God. Seek His presence in Spirit and Truth. Don’t be hypocrites, serve Him in Spirit and in Truth. May God bless each and every one of you.
Time is running out. God requires for His Church to walk in Holiness. Every moment counts, don’t be condemned by sin. Now is the time. Accept Jesus as your LORD and Savior and serve Him wholeheartedly.
Watch the video of Angelica preaching and sharing this testimony in Spanish with an English translation & sub-titles (1hr,17mins)
Read – Angelica Zambrano’s 1st Testimony of Heaven & HellIncludes revelation of Heaven, seeing Selena, Michael Jackson & Pope John Paul II in Hell. Visions of the Rapture and what happens to those left behind in the Great Tribulation
Read - Angelica Zambrano’s 2nd Testimony of Heaven & HellMore revelation about Heaven and Hell, including what happens to those who rob God, rebellious children, idolatrous nuns, and warnings of apostacy.

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Monday, January 6, 2014

Dear Future Husband,

Re: praying for a partner in life. If the person you desire does not love Jesus or doesn't have the heart for the lost, it would be better not to marry at all. The cost of following Christ is heavy and if we desire someone who haven't counted the cost, then be sure that the desire we have for Jesus will be compromised. 

"It was not a romantic honeymoon to say the least! However, this quick departure after their marriage and unity in their mission does show what qualities are necessary for a good missionary couple. I am sure Robert must have seen these good qualities in Mary before he left and that is why he marry her.
The Scripture says, "that many are called but few are sent."

THERE ARE MANY YOUNG MEN AND WOMEN WHO HAVE BEEN CALLED INTO SERVICE BY THE LORD, BUT HAVE NEVER SEEN WHAT GOD COULD HAVE DONE THROUGH THEM, BECAUSE THEY MARRIED AN UNBELIEVER OR SOMEONE WHO WAS UNWILLING TO FOLLOW THE LORD TO THE MISSION FIELD"

-Mission stories

Never rush


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Refuge

I am just overwhelmed by the many things that keep on happening in and around me. Lord, pull me in your loving arms again. Let me feel the comfort of your sweet presence. You and You alone can heal and put every chaotic moments back to being pacified.

Word for the Day

Reflection: How do pain and suffering affect your relationship with God? Do you drift from God or do you move closer to Him?
Jesus, when my heart is overwhelmed with pain, remind me of Your teachings. Strengthen my faith as I cling to You and Your promises.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

A Conversation with Love.

n.b. This was copied and posted from besomebodyblog.com

This piece just gave me the chills. It arouse the Poetic person in me. Oh where can I find my elusive Pygmalion?
When can I know if its the right time?Oh when and where and who?

A Conversation with Love.

Yesterday I had a conversation with Love.
She was a lot shorter than I imagined. Less elegant. A slight-frame, lean build… a square-jaw and a great smile… Her skin was thick, but soft. Her voice was light and musical. Her sentences were symphonies.
She was calm, but confident. She paid attention to details. There was a naturalness about her… She didn’t think before she spoke, but somehow the words still seemed to make sense.
There was pain in her eyes – from loss and longing… travels and tribulations… But her gaze was pure… Wrinkles of concern swam across her forehead. Defeat dripped from her neck. Her scars were visible… apparent, but ambiguous.
She was battle-tested.
She told great stories. The kind that people drop everything to hear. The kind that turns a room into an altar… a crowd into a congregation… She spoke about distant lands and amazing adventures… unfamiliar faces but familiar feelings. She talked about heroes, and knights. And dragon slayers. She talked about losing hope and letting go of dreams…
She told of her own enemies: Fear and Insecurity. She explained how they always tried to hold her back… they always tried to cage her. Hate, she could deal with. He was much easier to find. He had a certain smell… Fear was hidden. Insecurity was invisible… She had suffered at their hands before…
She had a long memory, but lived in the moment. She could reminisce without recounting…. recall without reminding… She never sweated the small stuff, but always remembered the little things.
She was real.
She talked about her younger days. She wasn’t a straight-A student. She cut class sometimes. Started fights in the cafeteria. Got caught cheating once or twice… She loved languages. Spanish, Italian… French was her favorite… “je t’aime” et “mon coeur”…
Growing up, she’d often get confused with her sister, Lust. They looked similar, but Lust had a way hotter body…. and longer hair… They were both spontaneous and free, but Lust had a shorter attention span… she could never focus. Lust was always the life of the party. Lust passed out the cake and poured the champagne.
Love washed the dishes.
She said she’d been walking for years…. Been searching for decades. For what, she wasn’t exactly sure…. She was a natural wanderer. An explorer. She said there was something bigger out there… something magical. She couldn’t describe it… only feel it. She dreamed of it her whole life. And she was closer now… she could sense it.
She had no map. No GPS or navigation. Her iPhone was out of service. She just followed the signs… Looked out for clues. Listened. She moved fast, but tried not to run. Every time she sprinted, she slipped. This journey was about pace… about timing. She had to make sure the speed matched her stride.
She never hid from Danger… never turned away from Trouble. Struggle was her sacrifice. Problems were her passage…. She didn’t know how to back down. She welcomed obstacles. She cherished challenges. She could take on anything, anywhere, anytime.
Love was a fighter.
She had seen a lot. Time wasn’t always kind to her. Experience broke promises. Expectation told lies… She had bruises. Wounds. The bottoms of her feet were rough and tired. And at one point, she became bitter. She began to question the voyage. Uncertainty began to outweigh Passion.
She almost gave up. Almost called it quits. She found a safe place, at the edge of the desert, with a beautiful view of the night sky. She had just enough around her to get by… Survive….. But survival was lonely. Survival wasn’t living… The stars were stunning, but she had no one to share them with… Isolation wasn’t the answer.
So, she began again. Moving. Forward… She was wiser this time. Stronger. More focused. She could still feel Fear close, but he didn’t hold her captive…Caution didn’t constrain her. She was just more careful… She asked the right questions… Recognized the clear signals… Made quicker decisions… She knew better now…
Love was ready.
We talked for hours… the conversation ended too soon…
She left early. She wrote a note,  and told me not to wait up. She’d find me again, when the time was right.
I didn’t get to say goodbye.
I’m glad… I didn’t want to.